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Why I had to block you from my life
Last Friday, I went cold turkey and pressed block on my phone. Took me six months to get there.
Till yesterday afternoon, it has been a series of intermittent sleep, guilt, sadness and above all anger. God I was angry. I was angry at myself for choosing you but I was also very angry at you.
See I work in a world where people come to me because they want to get unstuck or improve their lives. I work with beautiful people.
I also live in an inner world where I constantly strive to make myself better, emotionally, mentally and physically.
So I am not angry that people cannot come to the point where they say, I am going to heal. It takes time. I know that.
I am livid that some of them know something needs to change but they keep using that excuse to hurt others or to their advantage. I am enraged that they do not take the time to make amends and stop unleashing their bitterness upon others.
My inner peace
You could have destroyed my inner peace. I always had it until you came along. You left me with a sense of unrest. A sense of questioning. I never had that before you.
